Well, I didn't upload here since a long time because my PC stoped working.
I thought I was going to get a new PC, but now Hal is working again, so I guess I'll just get a new ram memory to play The Sims 3
The problem was his HD, so the Windows was installed again and I have to install everything else again too, thanks to my sisters for helping me<3

Yesterday I finished reading Breaking Dawn, today I started The Name Of The Rose.

I decided to write him a letter, I wouldn't be able to enjoy the vacation with things the way they were, and that was the only thing I could think of.
My sisters helped me, I drew a dolphin on it, Quel wrote for me(my writing sucks) and gave me some stickers to add. Then we waited till breaktime to go give it to him.
Ta went with me, thanks to her, I tried to give up many times, but she didn't let me<3. When I saw him my heart went crazy, I could feel it beating and pushing my chest, when I gave him the thing, I was afraid, I had no idea what he was going to do, then, he smilled and my mind is blank on the next, we started to walk out, and he said some cute stuff with his cute voice, then we left. I started to feel so energetic, I wanted to run the way back, but Thais was wearing flip flops so we had to walk..it was raining too..

I FEEL SO HAPPY!! SO LONG I DIDNT FEEL LIKE THIS!!
Thinking of those weeks, I never gave up, I wanted to let the penny drop, to face it, but I didn't want to, I had hope, and I didn't. I felt like I was split up into 2, but the smart one won, I didn't lose hope even that it looked like I did

I did everything I could, now I feel lighter, now I see I'll enjoy every moment of our vacations. If it'll end fine, I don't know, but I did everything I could, I did it my way

<3

Yesterday I finished Eclipse, today I started Breaking Dawn.
Now I feel like drawing the wolf pack!

And I have no more to say. Maybe just that this weeks seems to be passing as fast as it should, because last one seemed like an eternity, I can't believe we're on the midle already, I'm sure last week was actually 2 weeks, it can't be, it took so long to pass

Now I see. Nothing will happen on friday, this week is the worse of all, it's out of my reach, there's no light on the end of this endless tunel, all I can do is cry along.

This week is doing awesome.
On monday, as things didn't work out, I decided to make a new MSN account to have a chance to talk to him again. Just because of it our internet started to went down all the time, we stayed doing nothing for a long time waiting. I even got to finish reading New Moon.
Then we went to sleep.
Yesterday, when we woke up the internet was working! We turned our PCs on and then it went down.
We stayed the whole day  waiting this shit come back, and nothing. About 6 or 7, we finally had internet again!! Finally I'd have a chance to talk to him, and we'd have a chance to roleplay an awesome roleplay we were planing to do! We got on MSN, when we had just started to roleplay, and then........black out
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From about 10, we stayed doing fucking nothing and nothing on the candles light. Big part of Brasil had a black out, even Uruguai.
Then we waited...and waited and waited... an when it was about 1AM the lights were back!!
We went to our PCs and the internet was down.
I got to read 100 pages of Eclipse on this busy day.
After some time, the internet was back, we didn't get to do anything, it went off again.
We then started to talk about stuff, then out of a sudden, black out.
It was about 2:30, so it was useless to wait it come back, the hard part would be sleep without any fans or such, fucking burning on our beds.
As it wasn't enough, the day was also full of pain for me, because I'm a woman, and we women were born to suffer, even though WE create life, WE have to suffer a fucking bunch of stuff men don't, we also have to listen how men are better, stronger, this shit, that crap, and how women are unperfect men. Life is so fair.
Well, I didn't get to sleep for too long, I woke up dying of colics, it hurted so fucking bad, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't think, just cried and cried and surely disturbed Ta and Pap's sleep, after some hours I finally fell asleep.
Today when I wake up, the lights and the internet are back, but now we don't have water. How cool, I'm already all wet anyway.

This is not an emo jornal, I know it could be way worse, I just hadn't updated here for a long time.
But, good things always come after a crisis, it means friday will be awesome!!!
Ai... I hope my pain is gone till there..

Well!
About 2 years ago we got two cockatiels Phil as a boy and Lil as a girl, but after some time nothing happened, and everybody started to doubt about their gender.
Then mama found out about a place where you send some feathers and they make exams to see the gender.
Mama said they were both females, I didn't know about Phil, but I was absolutely sure Lil was a girl.
We had a bad time taking their feathers, it hurted them, and you can't even touch Phil, unles you're sick of your fingers or wanna see your blood.
We could do it and mama sent their feathers to exam.
Today the results were on the net.

What nobody has guessed, they are both boys...Raquel is happy now
I was super sure Lil was a girl... but whatever. It's better than if they were both females,  Lil looks more like a boy than Phil like a girl... even though I'd like lil eggs..

Then I changed his name to Liliano, mama hated but what can I do. Now I have to update our pets list

On sunday I finished reading the book Dom Casmurro, and yesterday I started reading New Moon. I hope to finish it before the movie.
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I finally finished Twilight, now just missing New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn.... I'm late, my sisters already finished them all.
I'll start to read now a book he asked us to, it looks cool, and Raquel seems to be enjoying the fact she associated the cry baby main char to Stein hahah
And later after I finish those all I'll read Umberto's the Name of the Rose, pap said it's the best of his books, and theres a movie about it, and now he's reading Foucault's Pendulum cuz I told him it was good hahaha

Some time ago, I was feeling like reading a book, I wanted a book of story, with mystery and things that can't be explained. I found a book called "The Island of the Day Before", by Umberto Eco. I thought it was interesting and that it could have mysteries. But my dad said Umberto Eco was a good writer, but he uses hard words, and that book probably was complicated.

We have many books, and our dad gave me a book called "The Amityville Horror", a true story about a house, ghosts and stuff, just like I wanted.
Until now I couldn't imagine that a book could make me scared, ha-ha. We three read it together, out loud to each other, it was really scary, and it was a real story. I was scared the whole time those weeks we were reading.

We finished the book,it was pretty good, scary, but good. Even gave us some inspiration for roleplays hehe

About a month and a half ago, I and my sisters watched on a TV program a guy being interviewed, he claimed he had contacts with aliens and that had traveled already to many places on space, and out of the stuff he was telling, what called our attention was a theory about the Sun being cold.
At first it may look madness, but he explained it in a way that made pretty much sense.

After some time I felt again like reading. And as I have a bookcase behind my pc's desk, I took a look and again I saw  "The Island of the Day Before", I started to read it, I read some pages, it was complicated, then my dad saw me, and said Umberto Eco is a good writer, took two more books, "The Name of the Rose" and "Foucault's Pendulum" and put it on my desk. He said it was pretty good.

Later when we told a friend about the Sun, things didn't work pretty well to our "crazy" or even "fool" side, something about being "smart enought to understand it is a scientifically proved fact, and that it surely is hot". Lets remember that back there it was "scientifically proved" that the Earth was squared, it was "scientifically proved" that the Earth was the center of all universe, etc.

Searching about it my sister found something about "Eternal Retur", and an ourobouros that is the symbol of the theory. It's a scary thing about the universe starting over and over again the exact same way, and that we'll do exactly the same things, act the same way etc.
Like ourobouros was a symbol she liked, I remembered about the one I like, Flamel's snake, and started to look up about it.

I was also talking to a friend and started telling some stuff I once read about Nicolas Flamel, he was the best alchemist, he did it to the Philosopher's stone, and became immortal, that's what they say.
As I couldn't remember all the details about his history, I went to his wikipedia page.

When I was looking at it, I saw some references, on some books he was mentioned, like "The Da Vinci Code", "The Holy Blood of the Holy Grail", and Umberto Eco's "Foucault's Pendulum", the one I had on my desk.
I still felt like reading, and as I like Flamel and alchemy, I decided I'd read it.

Near this time we watched the movie "Twilight" and bought the books. My sisters started reading it and I didn't know what to read first. I then decided to start Umberto's one, I started on day 17, August.

The story was about 3 friends and a "Plan". It was complicated, but it was really interesting. About secrets and theories. Even theories about the Earth, like it all stated. Things that look impossible, but there'll always be "fools" to believe. Things and facts put together to make something big.

Diotallevi was the one that shined to me, I started to like him, he was the last main of the trio, but he was really cute~ my new reason to read the book!
I then, wanting more informations about him, accidentaly read a spoiler, that made me worry, no spoilers here.
I annoyed everyone with it.

I had fun with my sisters about Belbo's childhood's storied. I told then it always reminded me of Stein when he started telling those stories about the time he was 11. Then Raquel had more stuff to feel pain about.

Today I finished it. I had an idea of the book that was really diferent from the story itself. It was really interesting, sometimes it looked like a history book, but it was many times fun, full of knowledges, but the end, to me, was really unexpected. The story was told in a good time, but on the end, it kinda was rushed, I imagined something "bigger", like, it was simple, what I had in mind was something really big. I'm not saying I'm disapointed, I really like the book, but it was diferent from the idea I had at first. It also had really good points of view and philosophic lines.

Umberto is really good, I think I really got something with all this. I won't forget Diotallevi, it all made some impact on me, maybe it's normal for a book, I hand't read a book in some time. But I recommend it, it says almost nothing about Flamel, but it's worth it.

Now I'll start the Twilight series, I started the first book. Next I'll read "The Name of the Rose", there's even a movie about this one, its the most famous of Umberto's novels.



Keep an open mind.

So we bought the books Twilight and New Moon last saturday cuz we liked the movie!
Quel will make book marks for us, she made a super cute Maka for Ta, but since our printer is doing crazy we made some on the traditional way.
I made one of Kyu for me, Quel made one of Dill for herself and I made one of Colonnello for Ta.
I started reading the book Foucault's Pendulum, by Umberto Eco, I'm liking it till now! And Quel and Ta started reading Twilight.

I don't have much to say, but who cares, I don't know why I bother writing, only you two read it and and you know everything I have to say.
Já se eu começasse a escreve em português... ia se ota istoria hum...

And Raquel! Let's go on with our project, it was doing awesome, enough of break! >:C

So long I don't upload here...

Other day I found the cyphers for Melissa, yesterday I started trying, it's pretty hard and fast, but I can play (very bad) a short thingy.
My fingers hurt and have bubble but it feels so good I can't stop playing, even if I can't play at all, my dad is awesome at it and he can help me.

Me and Raquel started a project, it's coming out real nice and it's very pleasant to do, I can't wait till it's done! It'll be so cool! I'm trying my best but she does almost everything hahah

Today I dreamt of Fernando, I miss him, his voice his look, being near him, he's so cute.

I've been finding it pretty easier to draw Spirit now, and I'm kinda starting to like my way to draw him, I used to hate it, he's very fun to draw, I just need some epic ideas, I feel like drawing him but I don't know how, just a silly expression or a random pose isn't good enough, oh well

New pic of Kyu made by my awesome sis<3

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Yesterday I played a bit of Full Metal Alchemist Broken Angel for PS2 and then I played Soul Eater for Wii and finally could beat that dammed level I was stuck in, the game is so cool, then we took some pics.




Today I my sisters and parents went to Gonzaga after our english classes, it was so cool but it was so freaking hot I couldn't stand it!! We met Cecilia there too. We saw a german shepherd, it's not common to see those here, she was so cute!! I went to caress her but everytime I tryed to pet her head she turned around so I only got to caress her butty, but she was so cute <3

There was a guy with a green parrot, he was a street performance, the parrot had a box full of little pieces of paper, he was kinda a fortuneteller, on the paper they had some messages writen, then the parrot takes one and gives to the person, and we passed by this guy about 3 times, and then he called me, he said the parrot was gonna see my future but, I told him I had no money, but he said it was ok and so kindly asked the parrot to take a paper, Raquel was with me, he took at first 2 papers, the guy said that it wasn't right so he took again, and that time he took a blue paper, then the guy gave me it to read, it was something about love, it was so cute, the guy was so nice, and the parrot was super cute, pap said he liked me

There they have on weekends some people with a bunch of pets on the street that need a home and are to be adopted, and the kitties are just so cute I wanted to take one!! I didn't get to take any, but next time I will, because they're too cute just to look, mama will never let we take one home but at leats I'll take one on my lap <3

Thais downloaded the Soul Eater game for PlayStation 2, it's the same as the PSP one (Thais had also downloaded), but it's so cool cuz now we can fight each other, and also the characters have a new outfit that looks like they don' have on the PSP version.
The game is so cool, Black Star and Kiddo are the best!!! But I never know which one to choose... we also have the Soul Eater game for Wii (Thais rocks), but we can't win the bastard we have to fight now, so we're stuck there

I also forgot to tell but we bought some time ago the Full Metal Alchemist game for PlayStation 2 too, the first one, it's so cool, Ed is so cute <3 But I didn't play much yet

We also made a Excalibur paper craft, it's so cute!! We still have to finish our plush, I can't wait to have it done, I'm really happy with the result, but it'll be better with clothes

I probably had more to say but I don't remember, aff

Yesterday Raquel unlocked Bowser jr in the Mario Kart game for me <33 Thanks sis, he's so freaking cute!!!



We played online today, it was so cool.
Yesterday I downloaded the rom o the game Mario Hoops 3-on-3 for DS, you can play with Bowser jr there too, didnt' play as him yet though

Cute Ed pic:


and also this super sexy pic Raquel found fo me<3

Today something REALY unfair happened to my sister Raquel(http://griffinwind.livejournal.com/).
There's this guy that "says" to love her, but she only likes him as a friend, for so much time, sinse he told her he "loves" her till then they talk and everything, but he always demanded her love, she always do EVERYTHING he asks.

When she's at my pc(the one with tablet) because she's going to draw, she wants to draw somthing, but when he figures out she's there, he doesn't give a shit for what she wanna do and ALWAYS ask for collabs, she ALWAYS accept, even when she doesn't want to!! I'm her sister I live here with her! I KNOW what I'm saying, even when she doesn't want she thinks about HIM first, ALWAYS, and even when she's dying to draw something, she gives up on it to make a collab with the "thing".

When she's at her pc he always ask for teamviewer(the program that you watch the others pc), she ALWAYS accept, even when she doesn't want, even when she wanna do something else, or when he wants to play some games, she ALWAYS give ALL her attention to him.

When we do something else of our lives than stay on the pc, he send her messages asking why she didn't enter, he demands her presence, he doesn't give her freedom, he annoys her ALL the time

And then, today I was talking to his friend, and I ended up asking something that she always thought, but that I thought it was just on her head, I asked his friend if he thinks that Raquel loves the guy less than he loves her, and for my surprise, he said YES, this guy DO love her more than she loves him..............................

I got totally pissed off!! It's impossible!! I'm FUCKING SURE she loves him way more!!!! He doesn't give her freedom!! She does everything for him, always thinks about him first!! And people think he loves her more.............. this is disgusting....

And it got worse.... after that she asked HIM if he thinks so, and the answer, yes, -Raquel: do you think you love me more than I love you? Guy: yes- ¬¬

I'm sad he lives in another side of the world, if he was here I'd beat the shit out of him!! I'd break his damn face and take off his eyes!!!

He doesn't give value to her love just because she loves him as a friend, pitful... its pitful, and it wanst even the first time a fight happened out of this topic, some people really have to LOSE what they have to learn to be thankfull, she's the sweetest and kindest person he can find in the world, and he keeps making shity thingys and making her sad, from now on I HATE HIM!

And I was at her DA page.... looking at her cute drawings... she likes Roy... she likes coca... she's the most fucking cute thing in the world aside with my other sis Thais(http://thaisrl.livejournal.com/)!!! One day he'll see the GIANT SHIT HES DOING and will be sorry, I hope he fells guilty!! Damn him!!!

He's so unfair and pitful, I won't forgive!! He's such a kiddo, a little boy, he's got too much to learn yet, and I hope he learns the painful way, to make such a sweet person sad... he's going to hell, she's so kind and innocent, I cant stand it!!

What more could she do?? WHat he want her to do? There's no how to treat him better because she treats him as a king!! But now, he's fucked up, cuz she's not idiot, nothing will be the same! He'll see!!

It came out giant but I had to put my anger out, I still want to beat the shit out of him though..

Yesterday I and my sisters watched the Full Metal Alchemist movie, it was so awesome, the scenes and everything I really liked, but I was hoping for a more happy ending.. anyway.

I found this awesome thing another day! Its so fun!!



Merry Christmas and a happy new year for all!!

Today is day 17 so it means I'm watching Full Metal Alchemist for 2 months, thanks to my friend Jared who told me about the anime, it's very good!
Yesterday it made 1 week my Ed plush arrived, but I was too lazy to upload here... http://pics.livejournal.com/burndragonfire/gallery/0001yr80

Yesterday I also found this video of the english version of the FullMetal Alchemist song "Brothers", the original is russian, but this english version was recorded by the guy that plays Ed's voice, I love his voice, and the song is so beautiful and touching.... snif... poor Ed...